ramblings of 03S78

03S78. HCJC.

27 of us make up the lovely class of 03S78 :)

it was a year and 6 mths ago that we graduated from hwachong, nothing much has
changed since then - we still have the good old class outings when we spend most
of the time walking around (+ extended one in europe recently), we still play
mahjong, watch movies, go æçå¦! together (at nwxiang's request of course)..

to many more years of friendship!

teddy! :)

our beloved school :)

our lovely flag.

outside canteen.

chalet in ubin.

'A' lvls results '05

Chao recruits!! '05

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ramblings~

Yijin + girls! '05

Xiz, Ms Wang + guys! '04

* 03S78
* hwachong junior college

* candice
* lifang
* yang
* xiaoxuan
* hilda
* quanyao
* xizhen
* sharon
* huiqi
* meiyin
* yijin
* yifan
* pear
* nwxiang
* weixin
* samuel
* ningqi
* pua
* yilin
* eliza
* wijaya
* ronnie
* weilei
* bong
* ryan shea
* wuwei
* r~linz

* hwachong!
* IVLE :)
* 30th Anniversary!
* HJC Council! :)
* our funky yahoogroups! :)
* winning thinkquest entry - i-Matrix
* blogger
* blogskins

* junior class!
* grandjuniors!
* 06s78
* 07s78
* 08s78

* dearly beloved ms wang!
* 03S77
* 03S75
* 03S71
* 03S7A
* 03A11
* 03A12
* 03S62
* 03S69

* 04S68
* 04S62

Its hard to describe how lonely one feels at times. Even though you walk amongst a crowd, you walk alone. Disillusionment. A feeling of not being understood out of the perimeters of choice. Edgar Allan Poe captures a somewhat similar melancholy perfectly, although his was by far more severe:

"From childhood's hour I have not been As others were; I have not seen As others saw; I could not bring My passions from a common spring. From the same source I have not taken My sorrow; I could not awaken My heart to joy at the same tone; And all I loved, I loved alone."

But the atmosphere and feeling I get is exactly the same. But why? There are less fortunate people in this world and I should be one of the last to start grumbling about life. *slap* I wish I could be throttled to the brink of death as a fitting punishment.

Maybe I'm talking about something no one identifies with or understands, but I'd rather let it out anyway. How enlightened I would be to understand the intricacies of my nature. Maybe its a form of depression that sets in with the gradual realisation of the inevitable alienation as the exams draw nearer and where the ones motivations and commitments come into question. Where thoughts fail to settle, focus is fleeting and the uncertain bigger picture is under scrutiny. It is only but a passing phase and a problem to which the answer is known. But my inertia to accept it is unexplainable. Maybe I am distracted. I cant understand. I cant understand.

How can I look forward to tomorrow, if I fail to see the joy in today? Why do we live on hope? What promise does hope have? I must rediscover the beauty and happiness that was in me. To appreciate life as I used to. To rejuvenate the faultering spirit. To reaffirm the ideals and beliefs. To accept. To let go. To choose. The more one cant get something, the more one yearns for it. Maybe the beauty in some things lies in the fact that they are hard to get. Maybe it is only today. Maybe it is a matter of time. Maybe, I should wait for the answer to present itself. Maybe, I have just understood the problem. Maybe I have understood it all along and just refused to admit it.

What a fool. Indeed, you must be wondering what this fool is ranting about here. But tomorrow I shall awake a happier person. Silly boy. Time to grow up.

qing2 shen4 duan1 pu3. Nice motto.

Back to being myself, the Olympics opening ceremony was simply amazing!

ryan

ryaniq lived on 8:23 PM

- 03S78 forever -

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