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Life never was easy, full of ups and downs.
It must have been a tough decision on you, cos i was once in a similar dilemma, but without that much stress.
Take things as they come and go, many things are not within your control. Choices have to be made at times, and just stay true to yourself and fight.
Ideals and reality never do coexist, it has been like that, and it will stay like that. It applies for everyone.
This might not help you but to see that you have finally decide is a relief.
Anyway, i doubt any of us actually know one another that well. If you people really have any problems, do find one another, find me, and talk, i might not understand but i can spare the ear. Everybody has tough times, endure and hold true.
Weixin lived on 9:59 PM
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hey q. really, truly respect you. things don't always go the way you want them to. and to put all that behind you and move on takes a whole lot of courage. but in every cloud there is a silver lining. what's most important is that bball has moulded your character into what you are today. same with track. so...GAMBATE!!!
xuan lived on 11:55 PM
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hey pple..
i tot i better post this on...before you pple started to get really worried...
i have chosen track and cross-country...finally....theres no looking back now...i have given my answer to ms low...track it will be...and cross-country...i will do my best...better than my best....more than i have ever done...and i do not hope to emerge the winner...but i hope to do my best....jia you...
the decision did not come easy....if you noticed i have been quite dispirited sometimes in the week it had meant i was thinking...i have thought since the end of track and field finals...i had tried going back for basketball training...and even went for club training....
maybe i should start from the beginning...right from the beginning...
p5...started to play basketball with a bunch of friends in the new class...(after we were streamed)...the basketball teacher-in-charge saw me and asked me to go for trials...i missed it because of a oral test...and they had chosen the team for the year...
p6...just 1 week before the trials...i injured and sprained my ankle really badly during training....
sec 1...the tchs admin forced me to join rugby...in order to quit...i had to join wushu...(one of my ccas when i was in primary sch...)
sec 2...spotted by the pe teacher during pe...asked to go join basketball...so i did...as i always wanted...had a great team...though i was very very lousy at that time...no basics no nothing....we got the west zone champs...in case u guys didnt know...the west zone is the toughest zone and usu the winners of west zone can win the nationals...but during the june break the guys just slacked away...we didnt deserve to win....
and so we didnt...got kicked out by a fluke three pt in the last 5 secs....by RI...top 8...
sec 3....worked really hard...tried to go for the team...but...in the end...i lost my place to someone who was slacking and jus came for training in the last 2 months...i was devastated...nevermind...i went to train even harder....nearly turned down the malacca trip because i wanted to train for the team...mr tan told me i had no talent...
sec 4....batch mates didnt want to train...too many excuses...the team begin to fall apart...didnt know what to do...no proper coach...no proper teacher-in-charge...nevermind...worked hard together with my juniors...but still....didnt even play much in the matches...much less than those who didnt train...the team who got champions two years ago....got kicked out in the first round...absolutely helpless....
j1...wanted to train hard for the team...had the chance to quit forever...but gave up all the oppotunities that came up to me...council...srp...etc. etc. trained really hard...the coach saw it...but he still didnt choose me...simply i wasnt good enough....i started to get frantic...desperate...jealous of all the pple around me achieving so much...while i gave up so much and worked so hard...but got nothing....i cant remain mediocre...i cant end my jc life not achieving anything...i have such an outstanding girlfriend...i must at least try to be closer...that was what i thought at that time...i was wrong of course....
so i joined track...in my despair...in my bid to achieve something...i trained hard...mr ram told me i had talent...friends, teammates, seniors all told me i had a strong mind....i was suited for track or so they said...right after track and field finals i was thinking whether to go back....i thought for a long time....it was totally logical for me to go track...i mean...i could be the captain for cross...i could be one of the forerunners...i could make sure my hardwork pay off...i had talent....training times would be more flexible...so i would have time to do other things...basketball has eluded me so many times...i should stop being stubborn....and accept that basketball is just not for me...
last wednesday...i decided to go for basketball...jus chiong one more time...one more time...i may get nothing out of it..but nevermind....but right after i reached home at 12 midnight...from my club training...the final straw came...my brother..got kicked out of uni...being a scholar...it would equate that he has broken the terms of the contract..we had to compensate 31K....thats...woah...i was very sad....but i knew i had to do it....
i need to do something for myself..for my family...for ming jing my dear...for my friends...for the school....
not trying to give myself excuses...in making my choice for track...i have perhaps made a selfish, weak-minded choice...a choice that i may regret for the rest of my life...but i have made the choice that i think suits my circumstance now....i need to start working for my final dream...to be a biomedical researcher...and doctor...to study medicine...both tcm and western...i have lay off my dream for too long...jia you...my choice is made...and there is no turning back now...my reasons may not sound logical...but think about it....
i shall work for my medals...at least this time...i would bear full responsibility for everything...CenTaD..CIP...bio olympiad...track and field...cross-country...it would need lots of hard work and a little miracle for me to win anything...but i believe i can...and i will have to do it...on my own...with my hardwork...
i have learnt a hell lot from basketball...and the happy and sad times i had alone and with my teammates would remain forever in my heart...i don't hate to run...i love to....but basketball would have a very special place in my heart....
i say 'i quit' for the first time...and hopefully it will be the last...
qy lived on 10:12 PM
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Alright huh....todae is a v memorable day....our chapteh team comprising of Wnx, Ryan n Perryn, after some painstaking kaobeh n niao-ing, n some v zai leg-work n faking, they reached the finals n won the 1st runner-up prize!!!!!yay....wad a nice racial harmony day...n good job wnx, ryan n perryn huh....n todae i was so high durin the competition then later got completely sian diao by pw period...waahhhh....s78 rox~!!!!...
n yah...hilda so chio~!
yang lived on 10:57 PM
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knock knock! anybody home?!?
sigh. this blog's been left unattended for so long. guess everybody's pretty caught up with their own stuff. well well.. really looking forward to the ubin outing! :) my parents are actually allowing me to stay over!! haha. yeh... can't wait. its like the light at the end of the tunnel. argh... my 5.05 nightmares are starting again this week. darn. tis gonna be a really busy term :)
xuan lived on 11:18 PM
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hmmm...this blog will be left unattended to for quite sometime i think
since yifan is in sydney...and not much people actually intend to post in the first place
Weixin lived on 3:25 PM
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haloz...just asking...will anyone be rich enough to sponsor me to karaoke after block on fri???plezzz
yang lived on 9:41 PM
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did someone recommend that site to you or what
i discovered that site 2 weeks ago and was already studying it
haha
Weixin lived on 5:00 PM
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Hey, yifan, u also planning to take part in inter-jc talentime isit.
Want to be Bun Jovi and perform it's your life?
Go get msn or icq lah so that when u are online and people like pua can go and talk to you.
And since when did u get osteoporosis, all the bones suddenly become so brittle. Must take calcium supplements, then go sydney and take part pictures of pua with the people there, then can blackmail him, though i doubt he got money for us to blackmail
Weixin lived on 3:37 PM
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what's with the sniff?
can't u just get msn or icq so u can chat?
Yeong Heng lived on 2:08 PM
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haha, i am not going to japan lor.
maybe i will take some photos of yi fan sleeping blissfully.
Yeong Heng lived on 1:49 PM
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Yeong Heng lived on 1:49 PM
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hurhurz...i agree entirely with ryan...i was like switching on my comp n just add my whole mp3 directory into the winamp n let the player randomly play any song...time really flew n notes really flew too...guess its becos its maths...kinda of more engaging n not pure mugging....yuppiez...
Erm...i want to say again...those going overseas pls take alot of photos hor...i wanna see them n maybe order a few nice nice pics...yuppiez...
n yah...regarding ryan n his talentime contest, why not choose some song u r best at?...with lotsa dou3 yin1...hurhurz...then all the judges will start to dou3 as well....heee...
yang lived on 9:50 PM
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Hmm... juz finished maths... sian diao... running out of ideas on how to eat up time, must resist the temptation of stoning. (thank god for the blog)
It's funny how you study freaking fast the day before the exam... and once you finish, you dun feel like studying for another subject in advance cos you're afraid it's going to mess up your mind for the subject tomorrow. This is a process that I've been going through lately, its called "accelerated short-term memory storage".
Haiz... I wanna go overseas! I want an immersion programme too!
I think I wanna enter inter-jc talentime... maybe I'll sing? *don't vomit* Been choosing some songs... probably do a medley since I have such a hard time choosing. Those nice korean drama OST songs are all so freaking high... confirm will zao xia... and jay chou songs arent much lower... *sigh*
ryaniq lived on 6:28 PM
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