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hey pple..
i tot i better post this on...before you pple started to get really worried...
i have chosen track and cross-country...finally....theres no looking back now...i have given my answer to ms low...track it will be...and cross-country...i will do my best...better than my best....more than i have ever done...and i do not hope to emerge the winner...but i hope to do my best....jia you...
the decision did not come easy....if you noticed i have been quite dispirited sometimes in the week it had meant i was thinking...i have thought since the end of track and field finals...i had tried going back for basketball training...and even went for club training....
maybe i should start from the beginning...right from the beginning...
p5...started to play basketball with a bunch of friends in the new class...(after we were streamed)...the basketball teacher-in-charge saw me and asked me to go for trials...i missed it because of a oral test...and they had chosen the team for the year...
p6...just 1 week before the trials...i injured and sprained my ankle really badly during training....
sec 1...the tchs admin forced me to join rugby...in order to quit...i had to join wushu...(one of my ccas when i was in primary sch...)
sec 2...spotted by the pe teacher during pe...asked to go join basketball...so i did...as i always wanted...had a great team...though i was very very lousy at that time...no basics no nothing....we got the west zone champs...in case u guys didnt know...the west zone is the toughest zone and usu the winners of west zone can win the nationals...but during the june break the guys just slacked away...we didnt deserve to win....
and so we didnt...got kicked out by a fluke three pt in the last 5 secs....by RI...top 8...
sec 3....worked really hard...tried to go for the team...but...in the end...i lost my place to someone who was slacking and jus came for training in the last 2 months...i was devastated...nevermind...i went to train even harder....nearly turned down the malacca trip because i wanted to train for the team...mr tan told me i had no talent...
sec 4....batch mates didnt want to train...too many excuses...the team begin to fall apart...didnt know what to do...no proper coach...no proper teacher-in-charge...nevermind...worked hard together with my juniors...but still....didnt even play much in the matches...much less than those who didnt train...the team who got champions two years ago....got kicked out in the first round...absolutely helpless....
j1...wanted to train hard for the team...had the chance to quit forever...but gave up all the oppotunities that came up to me...council...srp...etc. etc. trained really hard...the coach saw it...but he still didnt choose me...simply i wasnt good enough....i started to get frantic...desperate...jealous of all the pple around me achieving so much...while i gave up so much and worked so hard...but got nothing....i cant remain mediocre...i cant end my jc life not achieving anything...i have such an outstanding girlfriend...i must at least try to be closer...that was what i thought at that time...i was wrong of course....
so i joined track...in my despair...in my bid to achieve something...i trained hard...mr ram told me i had talent...friends, teammates, seniors all told me i had a strong mind....i was suited for track or so they said...right after track and field finals i was thinking whether to go back....i thought for a long time....it was totally logical for me to go track...i mean...i could be the captain for cross...i could be one of the forerunners...i could make sure my hardwork pay off...i had talent....training times would be more flexible...so i would have time to do other things...basketball has eluded me so many times...i should stop being stubborn....and accept that basketball is just not for me...
last wednesday...i decided to go for basketball...jus chiong one more time...one more time...i may get nothing out of it..but nevermind....but right after i reached home at 12 midnight...from my club training...the final straw came...my brother..got kicked out of uni...being a scholar...it would equate that he has broken the terms of the contract..we had to compensate 31K....thats...woah...i was very sad....but i knew i had to do it....
i need to do something for myself..for my family...for ming jing my dear...for my friends...for the school....
not trying to give myself excuses...in making my choice for track...i have perhaps made a selfish, weak-minded choice...a choice that i may regret for the rest of my life...but i have made the choice that i think suits my circumstance now....i need to start working for my final dream...to be a biomedical researcher...and doctor...to study medicine...both tcm and western...i have lay off my dream for too long...jia you...my choice is made...and there is no turning back now...my reasons may not sound logical...but think about it....
i shall work for my medals...at least this time...i would bear full responsibility for everything...CenTaD..CIP...bio olympiad...track and field...cross-country...it would need lots of hard work and a little miracle for me to win anything...but i believe i can...and i will have to do it...on my own...with my hardwork...
i have learnt a hell lot from basketball...and the happy and sad times i had alone and with my teammates would remain forever in my heart...i don't hate to run...i love to....but basketball would have a very special place in my heart....
i say 'i quit' for the first time...and hopefully it will be the last...
qy lived on 10:12 PM
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